As it's been very apparent, I have been neglecting this blog. I haven't posted in months. oooops!
Part of that is due to the slump I've been in. As mentioned very briefly in a previous blog post (back in June?) all our personal belongings that we had in our apartment in New York were to be driven across country and delivered to us in Oregon at the beginning of June... well here we are November 9th and our things are still not in our possession. It has been one huge mess to put it simply. We've been in contact with lawyers scattered across the US as well as police departments. We're finally working with a competent lawyer in New York that is actually trying to help us get our things back.
UGH!! It's been absolutely frustrating. Bear in mind that Caghain and I only took one suitcase each of our clothes and belongings to tide us over for two weeks. Which might sound doable for... a month... two months? but try moving to a new house in a new state and town for almost seven months with only a single packed suitcase. Thankfully after months of sleeping on a deflating air mattress we invested in an actual mattress and we've been slowly collecting furniture and other small things from local thrift stores. The worst part about this (maybe?... idk... it's all pretty terrible) is knowing/not knowing that my personal very loved items are being stored somewhere I have absolutely no control over. Everything I own, in flimsy cardboard boxes and completely out of reach. All of my negatives and prints I took/made during my two years at FIT, all of my penpal letters and super sentimental little items, the paw imprint of my former cat Rudy along with a snippet of his fur, my cameras, MY CLOTHES, makeup, furniture, dolls and collectibles, books, crafts supplies and so many other things you don't even think of until you need it. I've spent a lot of time diligently trying to forget all of that and keep these thoughts far from my mind but they sit in the back of my brain leaking into my every move, dragging and wearing on me relentlessly. All of this on top of Bowie's odd and almost fatal illness that struck literally two days after we moved was just too much to handle. I spiraled out a bit and really withdrew. But I feel like I'm slowly creeping back up the out of my dark pit of hopelessness and back on my feet again.
So I've really been wanting to blog and vlog again!
It may sound odd but during days where I feel I can't even get up out of bed I turn to watch little videos on youtube of some of my favorite vloggers like Zoella, and Pointlessblog, and Sprinkleofglitter and Tanya Burr and various other British youtubers that have brightened my day a bit and given me proper distraction of the disaster at hand. So after the hours I've spent watching these lovely people vlog and make videos of their lives I've decided it would be productive for me to start doing something similar. I've only made a handful of youtube videos as of yet, but I thoroughly enjoy putting them together so maybe one day someone else might be down and out and watch one of my videos to distract them and put a smile on their face. <3 div="">
Thats all for today, I hope to return shortly with some actual content.